My Mental Health Rollercoaster
My Mental Health Rollercoaster When people think of mental health these days, they usually associate it in a linear way of thinking. In my experience, it is more like a rollercoaster. It has its ups and down and filled with twists and turns that can be frightening and overwhelming for the senses. For many years I’ve dealt with what I thought was just anxiety and the depressive moods attached to it. Before I was properly diagnosed as on the autism spectrum, I would experience emotionally heightened moments of panic and fear. I would also experience moments where I felt unsafe, unwanted and really questioned my importance of me being in the world. I had lacked perspective and proper coping tools that would have helped me in dealing with my feelings and to express them in meaningfully healthy ways. For most of my life all I could do was panic and not necessarily in an outwards way, but rather in a way that would not allow people to see that I was not ok. A lot of my anxiety had to do w